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Tuesday, February 1st, 2005
7:24 pm	whatever i feel like sex so yea sex is on my mind right now after having a nice talk with Curt/Axel/BIG BLACK I came to the conculsion that he is a funny ass motta Succa. Dan like usuall is a good guy. Fat JOE just chillin aat work, School is kinda like okaay cause the girls are fine but to busy for a relatioship so its kinda hard finding a girl to chill with in a empty house but I know I can get some. Being single was fun but now i want more like a long term thing hopfully some time soon but I can wait for the right girl. o fo sho i wanna go see a movie right fucking now so i will talk to you all later peace easy Current Mood: aggravated (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Thursday, January 20th, 2005
11:43 pm	long ass time long time no update but o well. I as usuall fucked up. Hole in the wall, balleding my tires and fucking around with the hoe's . Even right now i'm kickin it at a dorm and these girls are about to get drunk. Now I am sippin on some good shit nothing really new I think people don't even think I write anymore but if u have a comment then write me back or call me if U got my number. I saw Dan today and got free coffee like always thank you very much dan. and then I realized I'm almost broke so I made money today for standing around . Now 200.00 hundo is not bad but its all good. Current Mood: moody Current Music: andre nickatina - K.Y.H.O.M.P.B. (Comment on this)
Saturday, October 16th, 2004
12:43 am	I'm back to life Yea after being hospitalized for about a month and getting Surgry on me, life seems a little easier of a place to live. All this resting and shit and eating healthly and not drinking or smoking actually helps. Who new? I just plane tickets to leave on the 2nd on Nov. to N. Carolina for 8 days to chill with my home boy Sa. I missed the guy so much and a shit load of girls feel the same way. But thats Josiah, the ladies man. Went to a party on Thrusday, God that was fun as fuck and all the girls there were hot as hell. I was having a ball chillin With people. It was good times. I have to thank My Family for visiting me in the Hospital and I have thank: Omid, Joe, Will, Max, Sara, Shirin, Morgan, Andrea, Izz, Cindy, Mere, Sherrald, Gabe, Mike,Pip Kelly,Hector,Lydia,Leaf,Dani,An, Brian, Clay, David Brian Frack, Erika Kyle, Aaron, Nick and the staff of Kaiser for getting me HIGH! Well i have no Internet at my house until I get a new Comp and hopefully that will be soon it then i'll wright when ever I can. Bitch your a Bitch and everything about you is a Bitch, Don't stop being the Bitch, BITCH!!! Current Mood: good (Comment on this)
Wednesday, August 4th, 2004
3:41 pm	things and other things well good news is Mike and I are going to the strip clubs on thursday and Joe will be back here today at 8 p.m. and he will come with us tommorow. We are doing the Wensday hang out thing on Thursday. Weird shit like but o Well. Weird names for shots: Lube Job, Deep Throat, Woo Woo,Buffalo Sweat and Sex on the Beach. I think Joe Mike and I should try a car bomb like next wensday, If you would like to join us in a Car bomb please let me know by tuesday the 10th. car bomb is a drink; you put a shot of Irish Cream in a beer glass and fill the glass with Ginuisse beer and bottems up. nothing new with me call me if u wanna chill before summer ends Current Mood: cheerful Current Music: Iio-Dreaming of now (Comment on this)
Friday, July 30th, 2004
12:20 am	good day and party last night bitch LAST NIGHT WAS SOME GOOD LOVING FUN. The Hulk is not just a movie or a comic book, It's a beautiful drink with 1/2 part of Hennesey and a 1/2 Hypnotic. Total percent chance of getting drunk 80% chance per half cup. Best sereved on the rocks. enjoy with rap songs that dedicate 3 mins. of beats and ryhems to the Hulk and have girls and guys around to hook up with. The party was right next to my house and it was Me,Aaron, Reid, C-bass, some asian guy named Lee and some white dealer named Dan the man not orignal at all but o well. A lot of Pigeons there and I was scared but I chilled out cause they didn't start shit. I still have half of the beautiful neon blue drink and when Mixed with the Hennesey It turns a glowing drink like Coolaid. It's an awesome drink that can fuck up the biggest guy and or the smallest girl. This drink is knokwn as a friend to all. and then Life was good the whole night. the girls, Tiffany,Nisha and,Megan where the chillest girls I have met in a long time. Good times for all and for all a Shot of the Hulk Current Mood: refreshed Current Music: andre Nickatina- HOT&HOLLOW (Comment on this)
Wednesday, July 28th, 2004
2:00 am	days go by and still i don't care enough to talk to u well good times of course. Chillin with Aaron and Reid playing poker tonite. I lost like 10 bucks that ain't shit so fuck it. Aaron and I played hoops and of course since we ain't black I can't dunk and Aaron is trying to defy the laws of stereo-types and tried to dunk. Yea he threw out in left shoulder dunking, the reason we have stereo-types is to save us the trouble of : being robbed,Being shot,being blown up,etc... These stereo-types agianst any race or any person will save us trouble about a lot of things. Back to how my week was. Morgan looking like a Frankenstien monster, said hi to me when I saw him. He needs to get laid so he will feel better about how he looks. I hope some hoe will give it up to him. But at the same time I don't want him to get some, I bet that he couldn't becuase of his eye of doom. Joe will be back in like 5 days hell yea. Wensday parties at my house when he gets over here from god knows where. O yea N. Carolina, he'll be back from N. Carolina in like 5 days that God. Yesterday I was hanging out with Fransisco and Dan the Jew, Dan and a few other people I don't exactly remember. It was fun hanging out with Dan I forgot how much fun I had with that guy and Jeff damn those were good times. Well we hung out at a cutty place to just chill and watch the stars Frisco busted out with the green of course and he and dan and some other fool hit it. I was chillin watching the stars. O yea Cindy was there and She saw 2 fucking shooting stars and non of us saw it. That bull-shit luck I have. Still single and not really looking. I think its becuase all the girls I now know are dirty little tricks and all the girls I knew before where nice girls but still immature. So I geuss I have to pull a josiah and Look for girls like I used to and should just be myself more. Without the desire to chase the girl theres no real reason to be so damn nice to a hot trick. Girls are just girls and its chill to get hit with that reality every once in a while. Now speaking of Josiah I wonder how he's doing. Chris supposeable flew over there to go see him I wonder If he's doing well. Chris I haven't spoken to in a long while, o well. So i'm kinda tired and The one eye wonder weasel my two balls is a great name for a team, Yea i'm fucking tired so I'll just say life is good when your with friends. We can all agree with that right? Current Mood: sleepy Current Music: lil John and the Eastside boys ft. Too $hort- Let my nutz go (Comment on this)
Tuesday, July 20th, 2004
2:36 am	Like always I can't sleep so I'm typing Till I feel tired. I feel like I need to do something right now but thats probably because I sleep till 3p.m like Morgan. Only sad thing is, is that I'm sober and Morgan is piss drunk before He wakes up. Well Morgans B-Day went pretty well the Girls there were hot as fuck and all drunk.Thats my paradise. Sad to say that Izz is leave for Mexico for a week and I can only geuss she'll get sick from the water there, Have to drink a lot a margariteas cause the water there sucks or she'll be fine and comes back with a tan cause hey, its Mexico. Speaking of which its almost time for me and Omid to go to Vegas for a week. Persian style. 5 star hotels with gold everywhere cause we can. Cindy is a new mom. oddly enough there kittens. So its not like she's home bound for the rest of the summer. Will's crashing right now on MY BED and thats probably what is stopping me from kicking him off my bed. The fact that he's actually asleep. Aaron worked today and hopefully we can chill this afternoon if I'm not drain. and Max called me up asking to chill this weekend. I think that will be good. To get Max,Aaron, one of Maxs's little slutties for Max of course cause he always brings one, Gabe and whoever wants to come. Need to find Sa's number in N.Carolina and need to give him a call. And now i'm wondering if Joe will come over here. I hope so. Like i'm thinking Logically and Joe's car is here, his mom is here, nice house to live in with no kids, and most importantly, His PS2. I mean his life is here in plainest terms. I will miss him if he doesn't come back. Now this reminds me of Will, He's trying to move to L.A. and he knows i'll have to hunt him down and kick his ass if he leaves and doesn't come back. That will require a savage beating like no other Phillipino person has ever recieved before. And its not like I want to beat him with out a good reason this just gives me a good reason. I see will like an older sober brother that is there for me more then I here for myself. It's pretty weird. Morgan is like an older brother but not sober and warns me about girls O like that are actually slutty little hoes that have like 15 std's. He was right about the last girl I tried to hook up with or did I dream that, I don't remember. Now i'm getting tired but i'm not in the zoneing out mode like I am when i'm really tired. Need to wake up at 10 A.M and its like 3 a.m. so I think I'm way too tired. must sleep. peace easy Current Mood: indescribable Current Music: Andre Nickatina-Nickatina Creations (2 Comments |Comment on this)
Friday, July 16th, 2004
1:48 pm	crazy as fuck well like always it involves one of the chillest and illest guys, Max. Like a little bro I look after him so I call him up for a beach party. He's like sure but I got to seek out and stuff like be home by 4a.m. Now thats early for me and Aaron and Fransisco. But we said sure we'll drop you of at 4a.m. So now its me Fransisco and Sanders and we call Winks. He doesn't feel like comming to the beach but he buys us the things we like. Winks goes home and we call Gabe. Gabe says he's down. So now we have a full car and i'm the driver cause Fransisco wants to get smashed. So I didn't drink. But I have a bottle saved for me with Aaron and I'll love this Saturday cause it's Morgans b-day and we all drink and the girls will be hot and drunk and this will only lead to all good things. We'll back to the story. Max got picked up at like 10:45p.m and we pick Gabe up at like 11:20 and then Max says that there one more person we need to pick up that lives next to Miller Creek. Aaron of course is like,"O God it better not be Randy's lil sister, O god". Max is saying no so I believe him. We pick up John Hams little sister. Sanders is tripping like what the fuck . we Have a little HHAAMMMMMMMYYY. Jesus when he said that we all started to rag on her. We had wood and lighter fliud, we had booze. we had chex mix, no fucking way this will go bad. I drove to the beach hella Apexing the turns and we had in there in like 30 mins. Driving in both lanes we I could give you the chance to go faster and take the turns widder so we got to the beach without a strach and shit was good. we started the bon fire and that lasted like a hour. that was tight. but I didn't want drive back just yet. So the people that are drunk right now are, Alisa and Fransisco. Gabe was sober with me the whole night so that was cool. We left the beach at like 1:30 and I was driving faster cause fransisco was drunk and I just tell him i'm driving the speed limit. Yea deer make so break like crazy. but I didn't hit a single deer last night. Went to the Grove in Mill Vally that was hella chill. Big red wood trees and shit like that. No cops at all if ur quite with 5 or 6 people. that was chill. Hamy was acting crazy Frisco busted out with drunkin music playing. and Aaron Gabe and I hung out ans talked. Aaron was laugh so hard. Max and I had a sober drunk convo. and Hammy was being Christmas like HHHAAAAMMMMYYY. God that will not get old for me. So right now its like 3 a.m and we need to slow head back and drop people off. Gabe goes first and then Hammy. Max goes next and I was like lets swing by Amy's house. well Frisco car is louder then a car wreck or a plane flying low. so I'm driving on a road i've never been on and people are drunk in the car. So I drive on this road to see this house trashed like a mofo. and i was driving slow and for some reason I was thinking of the texas Chainsaw guy jumping out of the bushes and I was freaking out driving. I think it was because I was totally tired. AAAhhhhh. I'm still having slept and I am fucking tired o well. So i gun it out of that place and I made it to safeway I buy food and when I go back to the car. Frisco is Uuking like crazyout of the car thank god so I had Aaron follow me and to Frisco's house. that was chill. Now its like 5:30 a.m and Aaron and I are washed like mother fuckers and were yelling HHAAAMMMYYY in the car and talking about how the night.we slept in Aarons car till like 6a.m cause his house rules are if your home by 11p.m ur not home that night. So the mom woke up at 6 to go to work we and snuck into his room we well it was really a nap cause it was less then 4 hrs rest. I'm fucking tired like a mofo so I'm going to sleep. Current Mood: drained Current Music: linkin park- Breaking the habit (Comment on this)
Thursday, July 15th, 2004
12:53 am	Sunset with friends going to sunset was fun. No young kids today. Apollo couldn't make it and Max flaked put o well. It was Fransisco,Will,Lydia,Ted,Reid,Winks and a few more peopl all around ten people in total. I have pics and we were all chillin, having a good time, i'm going agian tommorow with Fransisco and Gabe. It should be chill with just us three. I'll be working like a Fucking dog this weekend I know for a fact i'm working on wensday and that fucking sucks the cock. AAAAAAHHHH i don't nned that shit really. Good times I had. The people I wish went to sunset are Sa,Joe,and Gabe. Felt like something surreal. It will always be surreal. I do not care to understand it. Why try to undrestand a good feeling shouldn't you just care about it making you feel good about yourself. I will not understand why people need to try to make since of something good. Like people think good things can't happen to them. Well beleive or not Jessica Simpson did day;"Baby you love my sticky ass." Just heard thta on VH1 and I wanted to vomit but o well.I got Will and Aaron crashin. Were being all racist like usual. BEANER-BALL aka soccer. I said comment the first time when Ana's Boyfriend kicked us out of Regency for no fuckin reason. Hate that fucking idiot. and David and I saw some Mexicans playing soccer and I said that fucking beaner would make hella money if would start playing his beaner ball. We laughed like crazy. Then Aaron with his love for black people. Sherrald and him should have a 3 hr car ride.lol even Sherrald will be aaryon.LOL Love to all by bros and to all the girls too. (didn't feel like saying hoes, even though it rhymes)i'ma pigeon ass nigga BBLLAAA lol just playin Current Mood: persian Current Music: Andre Nickatina-Shere Khan (Comment on this)
Tuesday, July 13th, 2004
3:14 am	rose you use to like my style, I use to like your smile, I said i'll stay a sec, you said stay a while, we started sipping wine, said I was on your mind, I said i'm thinking of you too girl your hella fine, we hit the night time for a late date and every day after that for 8 months straight, we was real tight we had small fights, you should have seen how we argued in the street lights. I couldn't see you tears in the pouring rain, you should have seen my body shake when she said my name, she said i'm not the same , Andre you've change, I said baby its pain from the rap game. we went our seperate ways man I was hurt for days, man I didn't even call, I went threw withdrawal, flash backs of her face hits me some times and man i'll be wonderin man does think i'm,i think of Rose, chorus Loved you now till the end of time some time I put Alfred on I think of rose being with you is a state of mind girl i'm think about you all the time I saw her at a club,she was with a thug, she thought I would say hi, but i didn't show no love, The homie blazed a bud and I was getting high but I knew that she knew I'll protect my pride. I see her watchful eye from across the joint and she knew how i'd feel if I heard her voice, now some ladies talked and other ladies walked, but when it came to you girl, man there was a spark, your whole antimony man was like poetry, the very smell of your hair was like luxury, It was becuase of me that your day was bright and I would come threw with my silent nights, i think of Rose. chorus Loved you now till the end of time some time I put Alfred on I think of rose being with you is a state of mind girl i'm think about you all the time man i think of rose chorus Loved you now till the end of time some time I put Alfred on I think of rose being with you is a state of mind girl i'm think about you all the time Current Mood: blues Current Music: andre nickatina- rose (1 Comment |Comment on this)
12:15 am	good times got my infusion today that was gravy. hung out with Will, Sanders and Nick. Then saw sleep over which was alright for a pg movie. Hung out with Izz and Cindy at 7 like planned then saw Jesse and Cassidy which i tought was odd then Clay which I thought was on bad terms with me but is not or is and good at hiding it but i think Clay and I are chill and David T, and I thought we were on bad terms but we said our sorrys and everything was normal agian. Thank God for this thing called time makes problems in the pst stay in the past for the most part that is. Then I saw Fransisco which ws fucking nutz he paid me back and I treated him to a movie King Author which was free. were on good terms and tommrows Omid's b-day and shit will be chill. all good. Current Mood: amused Current Music: andre nickatina-jungle (Comment on this)
Monday, July 12th, 2004
12:17 am	Juvenile Slow motion for me, slow motion for me, move in slow motion for me, Slow motion for me, slow motion for me, move in slow motion for me Uhhh, I like it like that, she working that back, I don't know how to act, Slow motion for me, slow motion for me, Slow motion for me, move in slow motion for me, I'm a dick thrower, her neck and her back hurting, Cut throat will have her like a brand new virgin, Its like when she gets used of it, then you start serving, Hop on top and start jiggy-jiggy jerking, Slow down for me, you moving too fast, My fingers keep slipping, I'm trying to grip that ass, Keep being hard headed and I'ma make you get on me, Got a human up disguise but my face is a doggy, If You loving my ball, let me bury my bone, I will (?), marry bitches at home, One of my bitches fell in love with that outside dick, That outside dick keep them hoes sick, like [Chorus X2] Its like I got the world in my palm, your girl up under my arm She fucked up from the charm, She love the way the dick still hard from 12 till early in the morn, fine bitches if you listening you heared me i'm strong, If you going through your cycle I ain't with it i'm gone, you must've heared about them hoes that I beat up in my home, They wasn't telling the truth baby you know they was wrong, Now, make it official and drink some of that Dom, I don't mind buying blue, you riding too, don't be asking a nigga question bout where I'm driving you, Lil mamma my shit together I ain't jiving you, I don't think that nigga could do you better than I could do, you know The Juvenile from cross the street by the derby, Same nigga used to be runnin' with Rusty and Kirby, Can a playa from tha nolia get a chance with it, but I can't bounce with you without using my hands with it [Chorus X2] Slow Motion, she open, I'm hopin' she don't leave my dick broken, with brush burns and swollen, I'm toting she don't wanna make me out and believe her, I guarantee I'ma see ya when I see ya, And just don't holla out my name likewe was all in, Yo pussy throwback, and you know that, So stop stunt'n, slow motion for a real nigga, I'm gone off that incredible potion and i'ma deal with you I like how them Victoria Secrets sit in that ass, Lemme pour some more hyp and hennesy in ya glass, Would I be violating, If I grabbed me handfull, I'm knowing whats happening, all I want is a sample, Who you wit ? I'm in a rental today, Its going down and happening and I remember the way, Less money we spend on bullshit, the more for the weed Whats it gonna take for you to come in slow motion with me like, Current Mood: okay Current Music: what do u think? (Comment on this)
Sunday, July 11th, 2004
3:00 am	true drinkers Yea I just found out the medical diffention of an Alchohaulic. " A Person passing out from alchohaul within a few drinks. AKA lite weights passing out. thats the medical diffention if you wanted to know (2 Comments |Comment on this)
2:22 am	cracked out nite linkinier20: you awake/ linkinier20: guess your asleep linkinier20: kindda needed to talk to ya rahimcrew1: about what linkinier20: about you staying here linkinier20: im kindda glad rahimcrew1: that i am or that i'm awake linkinier20: wouldnt want you hanging with the wrong crowd again linkinier20: i mean you staying here when your mom leaves rahimcrew1: dude i just back froma party rahimcrew1: and i didn't smoke for sure or drink linkinier20: cool linkinier20: just got back from work rahimcrew1: and i'm pissed cause of this bullshit fact i don't have a car linkinier20: theres a reason, im sure linkinier20: so wheres the party at? rahimcrew1: shut up it ain't helping me right now rahimcrew1: i hella pissed rahimcrew1: it was at mill vally and i just wanted to go home cause the shit was wack linkinier20: im not saying anything, were im-ing remember? linkinier20: bad whacked/ linkinier20: or good whacked? rahimcrew1: and i needed to be home at one wack is always crazy bad and the bad bad linkinier20: well okay linkinier20: so why didnt you call omid to give you a ride or something? rahimcrew1: if i had a car i can determine when i'll be home linkinier20: what do you want me to say? linkinier20: thats not something I have power over rahimcrew1: omid was there and he just dropped me off hella pissed off cause he didn't want to drive all the way here then back to denny where he wants to go linkinier20: im sorry man linkinier20: any way to make ya feel better?/ rahimcrew1: and i fuckin feel bad about asking him for a ride linkinier20: i know ....... linkinier20: that dude loves you man rahimcrew1: i just fuck hate this type of shit u know like relying on someone u don't want to rahimcrew1: i know rahimcrew1: the hell u have to tell me that rahimcrew1: stupid thing to say right now rahimcrew1: i know my good friends and the fucking ass hole ppl i chill with rahimcrew1: i know the groups linkinier20: im trying to say that you shouldnt feel so bad about asking him for a ride linkinier20: damn nima dont fucking bite my head off im trying to be nice to you and all rahimcrew1: no its because he loves he that he puts up ith my bullshit but at the same time i think he doesn't deserve the shit i put him threw rahimcrew1: i don't need nice i need straight rahimcrew1: i need facts and to here that sucks cause it does linkinier20: so what the hell im i to say huh? rahimcrew1: nothing just listen linkinier20: ..... rahimcrew1: thats why i'm spilling linkinier20: go on.............. rahimcrew1: just be there to HEAR me out linkinier20: i hear ya rahimcrew1: i fucking don't need shit from people that ........ rahimcrew1: aaaaggghhh linkinier20: im listening linkinier20: that what? rahimcrew1: i fucking hate this rahimcrew1: i need to fucking get my car rahimcrew1: so i chill with people that don't have cars and not make ppl drinve me and not buirden ppl i care about linkinier20: i hear ya linkinier20: thats my problem to you know rahimcrew1: thats why i can relate linkinier20: okay linkinier20: go on rahimcrew1: it was an okay party rahimcrew1: i liked it rahimcrew1: but then cops role while we (Omid, Aaron, Nat, Adam, Reid and I) were out looking for another parry rahimcrew1: party rahimcrew1: that didn't work and shit rahimcrew1: went down hill linkinier20: at least no cop shit rahimcrew1: we had no where to go and booze for Aaron rahimcrew1: Adam and I were fucking tired as hell linkinier20: you would have need to crash anyway rahimcrew1: we all knew that shit was a bust tonite and still they fucking wanted to waste there time out side in th cold and do nothing rahimcrew1: sure we had laughs and good tiems with each other companyies so I can't complaine there rahimcrew1: I just wanted to not ruin ppls nite to make it short yea shit like this is what makes me sleep fast and i feel better in the morning g'nite Current Mood: guilty Current Music: Alya- angelfalls (Comment on this)
Saturday, July 10th, 2004
5:56 pm	Another day and A long long fuck night Yea so work till 11 p.m was rougher than usuall mostly becuae I worked at Regency and not Northgate. It was all good I worked with Morgan and Will and got to fuck around. Then Will got off and Omid called me and said he wanted to hang out. Will and I walked from Regency to Safeway. met with Omid and Fransisco. Must have got Fransisco in a pissed off stage cause he wanted to kick my ass and I did rag on him the whole night cause it was funny and what ever he says I just brush off like dirt. O well if I see him I will be sure to say sorry. That was a bitch move of me to do. Shit happens o well. Lifes tough get a helmet. So after getting in a verbal arguement with him almost turned into a fist fight I said fuck it. Lucky for me we ran into Aaron and Reid drinking thank you very much. Took the bottle from Reids hand and started drink to calm my ass down and it did. not Buzzed or wasted. totally normal. Felt refreshed. Felt bad about drinking cause I drink to loosin up and have fun not to forget about a problem. So I was a little disapointed in myself but only have myself to blame. Let that dirty ass mother fuck talk so much shit to my face and I let it slide. and he thinks he's the bigger man. he needs a fucking smack to the head. I found out today that Mike is going away to LA for a while and will be back on thursday. o shit son. Well Apollo called wanted me to chill with him and some ppl and I would think that it will be cool i hope. peace easy O yea I worked this morning at 10 am and went ot sleep at 4 am thats a bitch. its to fucking hot Current Music: tai mai shu- tie my shoe (Comment on this)
Friday, July 9th, 2004
3:20 am	Sushi and othre such things So today was alright and by today i mean everything from my night till 4a.m. Looking for more underground rap like Andre Nickatina. Talked to my mom about me going to college and shit like that because, as a suprize she's going to Iran to get her shit done. This is a good thing and a bad thing. This means no car for another 2 months, good news it means more G's for the VR-4 so it can be newer and I can buy better car parts for it. I'm just thinking. I'm really fucking sad like I want to cry but thats too much energy. I miss Sa and Joe and the good times with them and Mike and Chris and things like that. But Joe will be back soon for the Wensdays night. I will buy a new Flask and God will I love it. I want to go to Sunset point agian. God that was beautiful. I'm going to sit there on a hot day for Hours and write as much poetry as I can and take inspriering pics so i can have them on my comp. Just loved that feeling. Makes me wish I can share my feelings with Sa right now, about how I miss him and how I never ment to piss him off and makes me wish I was a better person. It's like the hike I went on with Neal and Will way back in November. 5 a.m wake up, got to the point around 6 and chilled till 7:15a.m to see Neal's first sunrise, actually I truly felt good afterwards. Out of the ordinary things like that are chill and I think my mom was in Iran like usual. Seeing a veiw or anything that makes you feel good inside, makes me feel like I am truly blessed to be alive and to be giving the chance to see what is in front of me. I truly feel like I do not deserve some of the things I am given, but who am I or anyone else to say what we deserve or do not desevre. I geuss if you do not believe in God then you can say you can judge, but for me i'll let God sort it out. I will pay my dues with him and if he wants me to I'll do what he asks for. It's the small things that count the most becuase we do them so often. I feel like I am missing something in my life like there is more but where I am looking for change I am finding extremes of idea's I do not really believe in. I am Looking to hard maybe. So I was talking to my cousins, cousins, friend today( met a long time ago at a wedding and we talk every once in a while) about how they can just change on a drop of a dime. Forget there emotions upon a subject like love. Like on day love some one and the next only see them as a friend. I was totally confused, logicly I think people can not do that. It's hard to totally let go of your past. I still have toys from when I was an 2 years old. It's apart of who I am, of course I moved on and grew into who I am now but I don't think I ever re-invented myself totally. I adapted to my surroundings but always had the feel and the memory of the past. I think my dad told me this," to forget ones past is to forget ones self" that rings true. Or maybe its because I was raised to beleive that. I do not know. I hope its not totally misunderstood of what I am trying to say. Its really one of those things I wish where ever I am that I can be happy with what I choose to do. Nothing really deep just the truth I feel. Just what I know. I can't be happy all the time But I can sure damn try...... Just later when I am done thinking so much. Current Mood: sad Current Music: BT-Satellite (4 Comments |Comment on this)
Thursday, July 8th, 2004
1:41 am	Crazy ass days So I slept over Omid's house yesterday and tonite I have Will crashin and Tommorow its going to be me Will and Morgan chillin till like Five then I'm chill with some female friends of mine then Back with the boys hopfully the the girls won't have to bail so early. Well Omid's huse was nuts like usual. We stayed up till 7 a.m. watching the best of wrestleing videos could offer. Yea we were loud and yea we didn't care much. I would expect nothing less from spending the night at Omid's house. There's just so much fun in what we do. I hung out with him till 9 p.mm tonight then my dad picked me up and I asked to go to the mall and ran into Will and we dicided to see the movie Two Brothers. Its the baby tigers, Thats all I want to talk about the movie. It was a good movie you should see it. Kinda tired and a little sleepy. I called Winks and asked if he knew anything for this weekend he said he knows of a triple kegger. Omid and I are like "your DD" and now we have to either find someone stupid enough that doesn't want to drink at this party or do the whole rock,paper,scissor action. Damn I ain't going to lose. Nothing really new got into an arguement with Fransisco agian like thats anything knew. It's always fun for me cause he trys so hard to be respected and fails like no other. Omid laughed hella hard and i just sit back letting Frisco think he has the mature upper hand then I bust out with racist jokes makeing him look like an idiot by saying shit to offend him then He has a thing about barking like a dog after he gets angry and fucking A I laugh every time. Fransisco is a GOOSE fucker. yes it makes no sence but I decided to say that last night at Omid's house around 6 a.m. when I was hella washed. We laughed way too much. the word Goose if said with a retarded sounding actsent makes anyone laugh or TTRROOOYYY. those are really inside jokes. FIAF to the Max. " God Nima your fucking weak" "Kyle you parked right next to a 10 ft bush and CAN't open the door" "Look steel door vs. twigs" "I can't open the door" " Fucking weak mother fucker is that what want to be called panzy ass bitch" "shut the fuck up crouch stain" "Good job now open the door" "dammnit" Current Mood: mischievous Current Music: mighty souls of mischief -93 till inifnity (Comment on this)
Tuesday, July 6th, 2004
3:03 am	good times Met a new person today by the name of Winks. Thats his last name and he's hella tight. Aaron, Winks and I hung out and we went to the Sunset its half way between Stintson and Mill Valley. It's fucking awesome the view of me and my friends standing over the clouds and the fog was unbelieveable. It was like I dreamt the feeling and the place in my head. People like random people that you would meet at farmers or the oasis or places like that were there but the differences was that these people were chill adults like 19 20 year old poeple that I met in privious beach parties and other parties in Mill Valley and places like there.I felt like a calming joy come over me. People were drinking and Smoking weed there like it was natural. No Cops around for miles and the Rangers do not come up there till like (p.m. like this was all planned out but the same time new and random for me. But before that I had a great morning waking up at 1p.m. and meeting my bro Will and picking him up to go eat sushi by the Regency. Good food and good company thats what anyone really needs. I had a good day today. Hung out with him till 4:30 then Aaron called me and I met up with him and we went to the Movies. Met up the Renee and A chick named Danny. then Winks should up had a good time, saw dodgeball. Fucking hilarious. Then Winks, Aaron and I did the whole hanging out thing till like midnight called it a day and shit was good. Winks is good at telling non racist or sexist jokes. He talks about joke that actually happen in our day. I just knew today would be nice. I asked Aaron about the party at the beach on the 4th he said it was Nutz. There were THOUSANDS of people there and that people drinking and a quadurple kegger hella drugs and weed being passed around and everyone was everyone buddy at the beach. cops came and only asked people to be safe when driving. He said there were on a loud-speaker and people were warned if they shot off any fire works that they would be arrested. They shot off M-012 and NW-33's, If you don't know what those are those are fire works that are usually shot into the are, No these were special. They were set off on the ground and like a gerenade he discribed people were running like mofo's and being launched in the air. True or not i laughed so fucking hard. The way he tells stories is great. there so much feeling and dramatic hand motions and crazy ass sound effects invloved and theres always an" O God, no this bullshit". The best times chilling with this guy. But like everyone there are there moments were he needs to shut up or get the stroy straight. He knows i tell him to check himself but limits only exsist when he doesn't want to piss you off. You ever fight him you better be able to fight or fight dirty to win. Winks although I just met him, I think he totally chill and fun to be around. From what ppl tell me about him he was hella shady and drugged out till like 6 months ago and he totally change just got a wake up call. Now everyone loves him. Him and Aaron are hella chill and care about people that care about them like if you got there backs for sure then no matter what they will have your backs. I like that Good times. I need to call Omid and chill with him its be like a week. Got to chill with Some how convince my mom to let me go to Maine to chill with Sa and Joe from the 12th of july till the 20th. Till then Pray for me and hope I can leave for a while. Peace out (Comment on this)
Sunday, July 4th, 2004
5:21 pm	chris b day fun Lets see your a guy who just turned 18 and all your friends are 18 and you want to do something to remember your 18th b-day like a tradtional but like no other type of fun at the same time. STRIP CLUB. yes the 4th of july weekend at San Fransisco was fucking nuts the hotest girls and totally drunk off there asses and when ur persian you bring a C-note for some fun and so did Gabe, Gabe of course is also like me a high roller. LAP DANCES for all us fuckers. The hotest girls and nothing less for chris. Then free passes for us all and Chris bounced early so me and gabe and Frisco stayed longer and had a fucking good time. By the time we left it was like 1:30 am and we needed to be home at a reasonable time cause they had work and I was tired. now the ppl that we missed that day was jow Josiah and Mike Jin. Current Mood: energetic Current Music: juvenile- slow motion (4 Comments |Comment on this)
Thursday, July 1st, 2004
3:18 am	poem I stay awake wondering why I feel so happy inside my soul. I do not understand why I can not cry, I can not bring myself to it even try I realized why I will not try to cry its because I feel alive. For the first time in a good long time I can feel good even when I should feel bad inside.I walk alone and thats okay cause I only have to worry about myself this way. I have no real goals and that lets me live without the pressure of failing. I can be like no one else cause we are all too different from each other, too different from ourselves. I try so hard to be myself I do not have to try anymore I live for me and if I help you that okay cause I like to be there for people too. I will do what I can to see the reality of our world. To see whats in front of me, To see if I'm your bro a friend or just a cold and hated enemy.I will be around you no matter what are grounds are its what we choose to do that will make us giddy or frown. I will stay true to my home boys and bros my family too I'll be honest to you and talk to you but if i'm ever crossed I will see myself somewhere, alone to be calm. I will never spite you because noting will be gained from it I will try to be true too that. I love my crew the DOME crew and the RAHIM crew with all our members in it too. Current Mood: creative Current Music: andre nickatina- jungle (Comment on this)